A nice way to remind myself.....

Isn't this a lovely way to remind ourselves to live more peacefully and indeed to live in the moment. I still struggle with this although I am better than I was a couple of years ago. One thing that I find hard nowadays though is coming to terms with getting older. I laugh it off most of the time but in truth it does worry me. I am afraid of dying, even though I have a strong faith. My main fear centres around leaving my family behind but also I am honestly just afraid too of what happens when that day comes. Rather a gloomy post I know but oddly I wasn't even thinking about it until I started to write. So maybe the little picture that led me to writing at all is what I should fill my mind with instead. It inspires me to paint something along those lines. I am midway through a painting of a face which (as often happens) I know reflects my own image but yesterday I had started to surround it with huge flowers. This has resulted in the rather sad face becoming illuminated and the flowers are giving a whole different feel to the picture. I suspect the universe is telling me something, don't you?

Feeling blessed

I had such a lovely weekend. We went to stay with my youngest son Dan and his partner Sharna and their little boy, our youngest grandson, Jojo. What can I say without listing every moment. It was just perfect and it filled me with gratitude for being who I am.

Ouch ....

I am so sore after my fall. I think it has really shaken me up as I feel very tearful too. Having a gentle day. xx

Sometimes I wish I could just go back here for a little while....

Not too well....

I am in agony today after my fall so might be absent for a couple of days. My back, neck and head are all very painful, as is my arm. I am also very nauseous so need to get myself lying down. See you soon. xx

Done it again...

I've done it again ..... I fell right down the steps at the front of the building today and really hurt myself. I landed on the base of my spine and my arm. This was worse than last time and I really hurt so just a short note today. See you soon....don't do what I seem to be doing at the moment, stay safe.

Something to remember...

After hiding away for the best part of a week because of my unsightly mosquito bites, it struck me this morning how easily it is for me (and I guess for most of us) to suddenly feel unworthy. The horrible mess of bites on my face has made me feel so self conscious and yes .. also unworthy. I have been feeling afraid of people looking at me and wrinkling up their noses, thinking ugh. How ridiculous of me for just a few mosquito bites that will go in a week or so. Feeling so paranoid about something so trivial is a reason to feel unworthy when so many people in this world suffer real and debilitating disfigurement. But...feeling unworthy simply because of a few bites on my face is certainly not. We are all special in one way or another. I know that I have many special people in my life, family and friends and I could give each one of them their own unique reason for the "specialness". I remember when my children were small I wrote in one of my journals what I thought their main qualities were. It is lovely to read those pages again and see that those are still the beautiful personality traits that shine out from them. I think it is a rather nice idea.....think of the people in your life who really matter to you and then characterise them with one or two words that describe why. It is very revealing of how beautiful people are. I must look out my pages from that old journal and reproduce them here on my blog one day and it the meantime I am going to try out my suggestion above. I think it can only make me even more grateful for the wonderful people I am fortunate enough to have in my life.